As the World Rambles On: August Edition
Written by Kenzie, Brenna & Callie
Happy Tuesday friends! It's the first Tuesday of the month and you know what that means, updates! Follow along in our mediocre lives and let us know how your August was!
In August, I mostly felt overwhelmed. First of all, by the HEAT. Texas summers are no joke and I've been wanting to spend more time outside (I think it would help out in the mental health department and also help in the fitness department), but I've had no desire to go outside in three-digit temps with air so thick with humidity that I feel like I can't breathe! So I've stayed lazy and stayed inside. With fall approaching, THIS WILL CHANGE.
I also felt overwhelmed with the course of my life. I still have that boyfriend from the hospital (who is fantastic and I'm definitely smitten) which I'm very thankful for. However, I'm still living at my parent's house. I am so so thankful for them and I absolutely adore my parents, but at the same time, I want to have a space of my own and I feel like I should be venturing out by this point in my life. I definitely don't have the kind of income to support that, though, at this point so I'm staying home for the foreseeable future.
I also feel like I haven't been as creative as I was in the past. A slump, if you will. This has been somewhat ongoing, but I'd really like to get back into some kind of creative activity. Maybe writing or even try out painting or drawing (which I've always been fairly terrible at).
I met with my long-time friend from high school the other day at Conroe Coffee, one of our favorite spots, and she asked me to be a bridesmaid in her wedding next May! That was both a surprise and an honor and I'm excited to help her in the planning process and talk more over the coming months.
Callie and I are also attempting to re-kindle our wedding decor rental business on Facebook, Simply Splendid. We'll be using our items in the upcoming styled shoots, as well as one wedding, before 2018 ends.
In September, I'm excited to get outside more, take Vinny (my VW van) on more joy rides and short trips, work on our rental business, spend quality time with people I love, and get back in the swing of things creatively!
August went by unbelievably quick and I feel like I've barely been home. I house/dog sat for two weeks then turned around two days later to spend a week in Estes Park, Colorado babysitting. I've never been on a trip to babysit before and let me tell you, traveling with kids requires so much prep and patience. Huge shout-out to all parents out there lugging your kids through airports because I know that feeling now and have so much respect for y'all.
We moved my youngest brother, Brayton, to College Station a few weeks ago which was so surreal because in my eyes he's still our baby and isn't old enough for all that. I've prayed for him and Bo, our middle brother, to find their path much quicker than I've found mine. Not that I've really found mine, but still I want Brayton to leave college knowing what he wants and not have to go through those, "What do I do now?!' emotions. Bo is currently working in Port Lavaca as a welder raking in all the dough and I definitely think he'll weld for life because he is so gifted when it comes to working with his hands. Actually both brothers are and we have our dad and mom to thank for that because they made us figure it out instead of doing everything for us. Callie and Kenzie's parents did that do and I think that's why we aren't really afraid to try something. #thankyoufornotbeinghelicopterparents #itwasforthebest
Wedding planning is still coming right along. I've started to address my invites because I'm very extra and feel inclined to hand letter them all. I know they don't have to go out until November... I'm just trying to stay on the ball. I had my first dress fitting and luckily, she doesn't have to do a lot so it's not going to cost an arm and a leg. Besides that, I've got to find about 40 more plates before my table decor is all accounted for and I need to line out groomsmen attire. I'm pretty sure I was supposed to do that last month but y'all this month seriously flew by. It's fine. I'm fine. Totally fine. (cries inside a little)
For the sake of transparency let me fill you in on a little something: I cannot handle not having a grasp on my future and it's my biggest struggle right now. I know I've said that before and I'm trying to be super cool about it but I'd be lying if I said I haven't shed tears about it. Yes, everything will fall into place and we will all be fine but it's the muddling through that is KILLING ME. Again, it's fine.
(I literally have no photos of myself or things I did from this month so my section is photoless)
This month was a hard one for me. I contemplated not going into too much detail and just writing a short "this month sucked" update and trying to put a funny spin on it. But then I thought, we're trying to be as authentic as we can with our audience and we want them to know us which I guess includes our struggles too, right? Well here it goes.
There were two main reasons that contributed to this month being difficult. The first, and unfortunately seemingly continuing one, is that I still have not found a job. I've been in Fort Worth since May and though I've applied to so many and interviewed for a good portion, things still are not falling into place. I'm so blessed that Jason has a job that can support both of us at the moment but I know that I should be, and I want to, contribute to the financial side of things for us. And with us in the process of trying to buy our first house I know that extra income would make a huge difference. This all just seemed to hit extremely hard this month and just really got to me.
The second reason is that I don't feel like I belong anywhere. I go back to Conroe as much as I can because I love it there and the people there (I even spent a week there helping the family estate sale business to make some extra money). So I'm basically splitting my time between Conroe and Fort Worth. And I think that's causing more of an issue than I may have first thought. It's making it feel like both places are temporary and I would prefer a more permanent life. The other issue is that I have fantastic wedding industry contacts in Conroe that would be amazing to have close with me starting this new assistant business and all but since I'm so far away I can't help them as much as I would like to.
Other small reasons, we're dog-sitting our friends two puppies and that gets crazy and hectic at times, Hello Fresh sucks at customer service (more about that in a later post), Jason and I can't find a good TV show to watch together, I have yet to get paid for an item that I sold on Ebay last month and house hunting is so frustrating.
But because life is a balancing game we have to look at the good things too. I have someone interested in hiring me as their virtual assistant! Brenna's bachelorette party is this weekend and I will most likely be styling a few styled shoots between now and the end of the year so I'm excited for those things! And sometimes the two puppies are cute. And they're so soft!